Some days we wake up and go to sleep so ungrateful for what we have and where we are in life. We have our rough roads, our bumpy paths, our unhappy trails. So many of my fellow friends I see out there that I no longer see on a regular basis changing their lives, starting families, having children, getting married...I want to congratulate you. Those who are starting their lives with a passionate career and finishing school while I feel like I am still deciding what I need to do with my life, you are all admired.
Although I get to go to work each and every day photographing doing what I am most passionate about, my life feels in a rut to an extent. The past few months have been a struggle with health related reasons and other stresses in my life that I just don't seem to want to deal with at this point. But hey, you just have to look at it as...either make a change or it will get better with the advancements you make and work at each and everyday. Time is the only achievement that will be given to you. Being patient with your inner self, learning that each and every thing happens for a reason. Those around you influence your life to be stronger and better whether they believe it or not, and at 20 years old, that has been the only influence I have had.
The past few months, I have not been myself due to some changes in my life, changes I did not expect. Change is not always bad, but sometimes it can be the worst when you're least expecting it. I thrive for the support that I used to have many years ago when I was a child, but as an adult, I feel like I have crawled in a hole and covered it up with a grain of sand. My exact point to why I write. Since high school, it seems to be an ongoing chain of events that lead me to a challenge that wants to bring me down lower, but I am unsure if it only makes me more strong or more numb to the nonsense. The one thing I know for sure as my own person is that over the past months I am a different person that I did not expect to be.
On a better note, I need to make mention of the person that is my biggest inspiration at his point in my life, my big brother, Sean. For about the last 8 to 9 years of his life he went through a constant battle, fighting his own demons. He was a stud baseball player. He has intelligence that not many recognize. He is one of the most handsome, loving, kind-hearted people I know. It took him 4 months to repair himself, and he will more than likely fight demons for the rest of his life, but I look at him now and look at myself...the only thought that comes to mind is every battle can be overcome no matter what the obstacle is, nothing is perfect, and I look up to him to better myself.
Although I get to go to work each and every day photographing doing what I am most passionate about, my life feels in a rut to an extent. The past few months have been a struggle with health related reasons and other stresses in my life that I just don't seem to want to deal with at this point. But hey, you just have to look at it as...either make a change or it will get better with the advancements you make and work at each and everyday. Time is the only achievement that will be given to you. Being patient with your inner self, learning that each and every thing happens for a reason. Those around you influence your life to be stronger and better whether they believe it or not, and at 20 years old, that has been the only influence I have had.
The past few months, I have not been myself due to some changes in my life, changes I did not expect. Change is not always bad, but sometimes it can be the worst when you're least expecting it. I thrive for the support that I used to have many years ago when I was a child, but as an adult, I feel like I have crawled in a hole and covered it up with a grain of sand. My exact point to why I write. Since high school, it seems to be an ongoing chain of events that lead me to a challenge that wants to bring me down lower, but I am unsure if it only makes me more strong or more numb to the nonsense. The one thing I know for sure as my own person is that over the past months I am a different person that I did not expect to be.
On a better note, I need to make mention of the person that is my biggest inspiration at his point in my life, my big brother, Sean. For about the last 8 to 9 years of his life he went through a constant battle, fighting his own demons. He was a stud baseball player. He has intelligence that not many recognize. He is one of the most handsome, loving, kind-hearted people I know. It took him 4 months to repair himself, and he will more than likely fight demons for the rest of his life, but I look at him now and look at myself...the only thought that comes to mind is every battle can be overcome no matter what the obstacle is, nothing is perfect, and I look up to him to better myself.